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Eat the Cake!: 30-30 Somethings

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Several years back, I decided to date a younger man – and by younger I mean 10+ years my junior. Adding to the awkwardness of my could-be-boyfriend choice was the fact that I worked with him.

My friends and I dubbed him “New Kid on the Block” when he first caught my attention. For months, the two of us flirted, he poked and prodded around the dating edges, and I agonized over whether I should give him the signal to proceed.

“I shouldn’t date someone so young.”

“I shouldn’t date someone I work with.”

“I should only date people with whom I think long-term relationships are possible.”

These are just a few of the thoughts that fluttered through my mind as he doggedly pursued me.

While enjoying a lovely dinner with New Kid after work one day, my friend Jennifer’s comments popped into my head.

“Eat the darn cake!” she mocked from the past.

So later that evening, as we said our goodbyes, I let New Kid kiss me.

He asked me afterward why I’d given in, and I recounted my exchange with Jennifer years earlier…

My brain and heart were battling each other about a different guy at the time. Well into a wonderful marriage herself, Jennifer patiently listened as I listed all of the reasons I shouldn’t date the guy under scrutiny, and then she peppered me with questions:

“Sounds like he’s a great guy, yes?”

“Yes.”

“He’s funny, smart, attractive, all of your main criteria, right?”

“Yes.”

“So forget the other stuff, Kim. Just eat the darn cake!”

“Huh?”

That’s when she shared an exchange that she’d had with a 70- or 80-year-old woman (can’t remember exactly) reflecting on her life choices. This wise lady had explained to Jennifer that, as she looked back on her life, she wished that she’d embraced the moment more and been less concerned about all of the ramifications of each choice.

She talked about the countless dinner parties she’d attended in which she passed on the dessert. Instead of agonizing over the calories she’d need to burn off later, which hadn’t made a real difference in her life, she wished she’d dug in and enjoyed every bite.

Eat the Cake

This woman’s regrets didn’t focus on what she had done but on what she hadn’t been willing to try.

I found this story profound and adjusted my life accordingly.

Somehow, I think my retelling of my earlier epiphany to New Kid got lost in translation.

He found my recounting of it hysterical, and it boosted his ego dramatically. He proceeded to leave me Post-It notes on my desk and sent texts signed “Cake” for months.

What started out as sweet turned sour several fun-filled months later, but thankfully, we remained good friends and colleagues.

I didn’t share the nuances of this relationship with many folks, given how awkward it remains to talk about one’s failed attempts at love, but I think all encounters, pass or fail, should be celebrated.

While the brief romantic exchange with New Kid and I did not result in a long-term relationship, and I flinch occasionally when I look back, I’m glad that I “ate the darn cake” in that instance and many others before and since.

I only hope I’ll have the guts to consume the many slices of life that my 40s will serve me.

(This story was inspired, in part, by WordPress’ Break the Silence Daily Prompt. This post also is one of 30 30-somethings I’m writing for the weekly countdown to my 40th birthday. Celebrate with me as I share other lessons or humbling experiences from the past decade.)

Join me and other writers over at the Yeah Write Weekly Writing Challenge Grid.

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33 thoughts on “Eat the Cake!: 30-30 Somethings

  1. I really like this blog and couldn’t agree more. I never want to look back and regret not having been bold enough to say yes, take a risk, try something new, to love.

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  2. Take it from someone that has entered her 40’s. As long as you’re smart about the chances and adventures you take then go for it and don’t worry about how it looks or what others will think. Because in the end, no one consulted you when they took their own chances. I married a man 9 years my junior plus he was a coworker. Yes, I too flinched in the beginning. But then I thought… would him being closer to my age guarantee a successful marriage? If he worked somewhere else, would it make him a better prospect? Are there any guarantees to how I think things should be? No? Then give all things a chance. Hope you continue to enjoy all the symbolic calories life has to offer you.

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  3. Wow! What a great perspective. Clearly, my younger-man adventure didn’t pan out as well, but I’m glad I did it. Thank you for sharing your experience!

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  4. This is a great post! As my blog is called “Forty, c’est Fantastique”, I think you know where I stand on that one! Even though I found the man of my dreams when I was 21, I spent my 30’s trying too hard to “get somewhere” (still haven’t figured out where that was!) and not just enjoying the things around me. 40 changed my mind about a lot of those things. So, happy upcoming 40th. It’s awesome 🙂 BTW I love your tagline!

    jetgirlcos visiting via Forty, c’est Fantastique

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  5. Great post. As I was reading your post, about “eating the darn cake”, it made me think of a saying my father-in-law shared with me. He told me that when you get older, you are also liberated from some of the silly rules we make for ourselves, and the way to know that you’ve reached that point is when you realize, “Hey! I’m old enough to eat my dessert first!” 🙂

    God bless you,
    Cheryl

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    • Ha! I ate a bit of chocolate and milk for breakfast the other day. I’m not sure if that puts me in the category of still trying to be young or that I’m older and willing to break the rules. Regardless, I did it. 🙂

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  6. I don’t pass on dessert often enough. And that’s not metaphorical. Actually, it might be metaphorical as well as factual now that I think of it. Not that I have many regrets…but I wouldn’t mind a few do-overs. Ha!

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    • I think we’d all like a few mulligans, and the fact that that term is used so often in golf is the reason I love that sport. But overall, I think living without regrets and just learning from past mistakes is a good way to approach life.

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  7. Glad you ate the cake!

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  8. I married late in life when I met my future husband who is 7 years younger. Eat the cake.

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  9. A regular Lady Godiva, you are! 😉 Go for it! Eat the cake! Dessert is a terrible thing to waste. haha

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  10. Such wise advice. Love it!

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  11. In regards to actual cake, I’ve finally quit worrying. In ten years, I’m not going to give a crap about the amount of calories I shouldn’t have eaten. Who cares?! I try to incorporate this into other scenarios as well. It works sometimes but I still have some work to do 🙂

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  12. I thought of this yesterday afternoon during the monthly division birthday celebration. I did not hesitate one bit to eat a piece of cake.
    I’m glad that “Cake” didn’t work out. While I see nothing wrong with dating younger people, I think he missed the point the story.

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  13. i enjoyed this post. i like how you wove in the older women’s story and how you learned from his wisdom. that’s awesome. props for taking risks. wish i could do that more, i’m one to always linger over possible ramifications.

    and there’s always time for cake! =D

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  14. I liked this reflection, but am distracted by the photo of cake, which is making my mouth water awfully badly…

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  15. Yes! I love “eat the cake.” What a wise woman, and what a wise friend to relate that to you. 🙂

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